Renovations...

     Back in April, we purchased an older home that needed some TLC for a steal.  It is not a grand home, or even the home of my dreams, except that it will allow us to financially breathe.  We were blessed to be able to pay cash.  No mortgage means we will be able to do the many things we need to do in the future without being strapped and stressed and in a dither over where the money will come from, such as sending our beloved daughter to college without the debt.  We don't want our daughter to have to start out life under the heavy burden of college loans, nor do we desire to burden ourselves and enslave ourselves to a lender.  So in essence, it is the home of our dreams because it will allow us to fulfill many of our other dreams other than simply owning a home. 
     We needed to do quite a bit of remodeling before moving in as it is an older home.  My goal was to be in it by June 1st.  Well...June 1st has come and gone, and we are still not in our new home (new to us you understand), and we are still remodeling.  My husband being the frugal minded man that he is, which don't get me wrong greatly balances out the relationship as I am a very free spender, convinced me that we could do this work ourselves.  And technically speaking, we can.  There is nothing very difficult about what needs doing; it is simply laborious and time-consuming.
     Oh btw, did I mention that I work a full-time job that takes me away from home (including travel time) 11 hours a day?  And, my husband suffers from a severe degenerative spinal injury? We also have a 15 year old daughter and two dogs.  LOL!  I hear the excuses forming in my head even before they are typed, so I must be honest and say we are not one of those families that are rushing to and fro from event to event.  We do have surpluses of time, even considering the above mentioned things.
     The bottom line is, I simply have not managed my time well.  And thus, we are still not in our new home.  This is turning into a confession of sorts...
     I'm not sure why I am blogging about this... Perhaps to strive for some accountability.  If I put this in writing, and log every day what we have accomplished maybe just maybe this will spur me on to completion.
     One thing I am seeing, or rather God is showing me and I've not been daft enough to miss the connections, are the similarities of the renovation of this new home and the renovations that need to take place in my heart.  I will be 36 in a couple of weeks, and, like this old home, there are areas of my heart and mind that need some definite renovating.  Ideas that need molding and shaping and carrying out.  Old wounds that need to be scraped and cleansed so that new skin can grow and bring a final healing.  This old heart of mine resembles on of those cracked glass vases - only I"m not so sure it is as pretty as the ones I've seen.  That is where I need to take stock.  How have the things in my life shaped who I am, and have the shaped me for better or worse??? 
     So today is another day of stepping into the attic and taking a scary peak around, both literally and alegorically... Seeing what needs sweeping out and replacing, and seeing if there is anything worth keeping.  so...ttfn, i'll let you know what i find...